Day 3: First day at work

I was a little worried about my first day at work during Sauratra. Since most of my colleagues smoke, it is kind of difficult to not smoke even when you don’t feel like smoking. Then the kind of work I do at times, actually the amount of work I do at times, makes you crave for a smoke when you get a little frustrated. You know, that pissed off moment when you wake up from your station and yell “Banjo chalo yaar koi sigart peene dimaag ki dahi ho rahi hai!!!” I was wondering if I’d even survive a single day at work without smoking.

Day came, they saw, I conquered. Again, it was quite an easy task to survive the day without smoking. Although prior to this, I’d promise myself every night that I’d quit smoking the next day. But every day, the moment somebody asked me if I wanted to smoke, I just couldn’t say no. But times have changed. They asked, I said no. They went out for a smoke, I even gave them company, but didn’t even feel like taking a drag. And I am hoping it continues like this.

It looks like not smoking would be easier than not drinking. I wonder if I can deal with it when the craving for drinking kicks in. Haven’t stayed sober in quite some time. The last break I took was when I was doing Vipassana. That was 10 days of no drinking, besides a LOT of other things/restrictions. I couldn’t even masturbate. A guy hasn’t had sex in over 2 years, and you ask that guy to not masturbate? That’s just not cool man, hey Buddha, it’s just not cool yo.

But I am happy with my progress. I feel better already. More energetic, fresher, more cheerful and active and not lethargic at all. It’s working fine, let’s just hope it continues.  

I was even considering not shaving or cutting my hair for these 100 days. But that’ll be pushing it a little na? Do let me know what you think about it.