Day 31 – 35 – Nothing Is What It Seems

People often misunderstand Sauratra. Some think it’s an annual religious rite that I’m following, some feel it’s just 100 days of no smoking or drinking, and most think it’s a whole lot of bull-crap. The last category is the one I love the most, because I know I’m going to have the last laugh. Although it IS a whole lot of bull-crap, but deep down inside it’s got substance. At least I’d like to believe so.

It is more than just quitting smoking or drinking. It’s also not religious, AT ALL! It’s more to do with the basic human nature of being a little undisciplined and lazy in life. It’s about testing your will power. It’s about getting that discipline back and giving your life a new direction. That new direction could be a smoke-free life, a new job, a change of interest, development of a new skill, discovering a new hobby among innumerable other things. It differs from person to person.

So Sauratra, simply put, is about a quick 100-day trip where you challenge yourself to complete a task (s) successfully and come out of it a better and a happier person.

Hence, nothing is what it seems. What might look like a stunt from the outside, could be a well-thought of activity of the subconscious mind. What might’ve started off as a farce could really be something big and life-changing. You never know.

Enough about Sauratra, right? I just wanted to clear the air, you know. I’m done with it now. I’ll get on to other things. Like my writing skills for example. (Beware; this is going to be a long one. I do not expect too many people to read this one completely. But it’s fine. Tonight I feel like writing.)

I write professionally. Currently writing is the thing I know best. I might not be very good at it, but I’m pretty sure I’m getting there. So when one tells you that the level of your writing has gone down, you really need to pause for a bit and analyse where you’ve gone wrong. You cannot ignore such a warning since it affects your life completely. Especially when it comes from the person who was amongst the biggest advocates of your writing skills to begin with.

This rude shock came to me recently and rather than trying to justify the fall in the quality or making excuses, I thought over it, and decided to fix it instead. I saved all the justifications and excuses for the writer in my. I had a long chat with him and we figured out that the best way to fix this mess is to come back with a bang and answer your critics. Because, in the end, your critics are your best friends. It’s them who make you write better. P.S. I am talking about people I trust and people who give me a constructive feedback. Sell out bitches writing for a sell out newspaper don’t count yo.

I am hoping this blog post would be a slight improvement over the other random blog posts from the past. This might not be as great as you would expect, but at least this would bring out the fact that I acknowledge the fact that the quality of my writing has gone down and that I am working towards fixing it. I am not giving any excuses, I am not justifying anything. I am merely acknowledging and trying to get better than I have ever been.

Just because from the look of this blog it looks like that I can’t write anymore, does not mean that I really can’t. Again, nothing is what it seems.

Hulk is not a monster, he’s just messed up. A priest might not always be a saint. A father is not always the best protector. A friend could fuck you over. I may not always be there, but as I said, nothing is what it seems.

On a lighter note, here’s a comic a friend of mine made for Sauratra. Hail! :-)

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